HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

First and foremost I'd like to wish you a happy birthday. I hope this year becomes one of your best so far and brings you all the joy and happiness you deserve. May Allah shower you with his blessings and give you everything you've ever wished for. May He erase all your problems and make your worries vanish. More years to come In Shaa Allaah and hopefully one day, I'll be physically there to celebrate it with you. Until then, I hope this is enough to put a smile on your face. I love you hayati, enjoy reading... ♡

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I don't even know where to start. It's still so crazy to me how a random dm has lead me to meet one of the most important people in my life. I remember that day specifically and even the date. August 11th. If someone were to tell me that day would be the day I'd stumble upon my soulmate, I would've never believed them. I never used to be one that believes in soulmates and I never imagined what it would be like to have someone in my life I'd risk everything for and care so much for. There was even a time where I didn't care about anything or anyone at all, but then I met you and that's where everything changed. My view on things, the way I felt, my idea of what love and friendship were suppose to be like and so much more. You're truly the one thing in my life I'm so grateful for. You truly mean the entire world to me and it frustrates me how I can't even properly explain how I feel about you, because there's just simply not enough words in this entire universe that could even come close to define what you mean to me. I'm probably going to repeat myself a dozen times throughout these next few pages but I just want you to understand what an amazing person you are to me, and realise how much you're loved, cared for and appreciated. You deserve every single ounce of good and happiness this world has to offer. There's nothing in the world, that could bring me more peace and joy than to see you be genuinely happy, consistently. I'll make sure of it.

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MY FAVORITE PART

I'd like to tell you about the very first thing that made me fall for you. The thing that made me fall for you is also the very thing that defines you. And to this day, it's still the thing I adore most about you. I fell in love with the most beautiful part of you. I fell in love with your heart, before falling in love with any other part of you. Your heart is the thing that captured me the most.

So, now you're probably wondering what exactly made me fall in love with your heart. It's the way you care so deeply about the people that are close to you. How you always check up on them, how you're so kind to everyone. Even those who've hurt you, even those that don't deserve an ounce of your kindness. Somehow, you still manage to give it to them. It's the fact you'd still be willing to be there for others when they're in need, even while you might be in pain yourself. It’s the way you're so polite towards everyone, how you speak to people, how you carry yourself, how you don't instantly judge people. How you're so generous and always willing to help. You always give without expecting anything in return and that's what adds meaning to your actions. That's what sets you apart. That's what makes you different, from anyone I've ever met before.

Regardless of all the hurt you've endured and the many things you've been through, no matter how many times you've got to the point of wanting to shut your feelings off and remain numb. You're still here today, still having the most giving heart. Being one of the most selfless and kind hearted person I've met in my life. You put a smile on everyone's face without even realising it yourself, you make them laugh without trying. You're so pure and refreshing to be around and you don't even need to try. People like you are rare Mubeen. You're the kind of person who'd literally enter a sad room and make everyone's faces light up. A very bright star that lights up the entire sky when it's all dark and empty. Just one single star, that has a light so bright it opens up the entire sky. That's you. You're that star for me. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes, I really wish you could see what I see. I wish you could see the part of you I fell in love with. The part I still fall in love with every single day. Over and over again.

When I say that I love your heart, it's not just that. it means I'm willing to go through anything to protect it. It means I'm here to heal it, to take care of it, to erase all the things that have ever damaged it's walls. To rebuild it, I'm here to hold it, love it, kiss it, treat it with care and mold the broken pieces back together. It's a commitment I'll hold for life and you know the best part about it all? I love you so much, that it wouldn't even feel like a task to me. It'll be something I'd do willingly and naturally. Something I wouldn't even need to remind myself or scared to forget about, because after all, it's what I'm here for. There's nothing I'd rather spend the rest of my life doing than taking care of your heart.

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YOU COMPLETE ME

What's the night without it's moon? What's a rose without it's petals? What's a heart without a soul? Incomplete. Those things would be empty without their other counterparts. Those things are only meaningful and of value when the whole picture is complete. Or else, their value will remain half, which will take away all their meaning and beauty. Just like I'd remain half and empty without you. You are the part that completes me. You make me whole. You're the missing piece to my puzzle. I've never felt more complete than when I am with you. it didn't even occur to me how empty I felt before you entered my life. I felt like I was missing something but I couldn't put my finger on it. However, I never would've expected, in a million years, that whatever I was missing would've been gifted to me all at once, in the form of a single person. You're the greatest gift I could've ever asked for. You entered my life so nonchalantly, so unexpectedly. I still remember the first day you dm'd me so vividly, like it was yesterday. Looking back at it now, it gives me the chills. I had no idea back then, how much you'd mean to me. I had no clue how much you'd change my life and the impact you'd have on me. Now, I truly understand what they mean when they say the best type of love comes when you least expect it. It catches you off guard. It comes at a moment when you're not looking for it nor waiting on it to be given to you. Mostly, at a moment where you've given up all hope to ever receive it. But the moment it enters your life and you finally get a hold of it, there's nothing you wouldn't risk to keep it. There's nothing in this world that could ever come between you and me. There's nothing I wouldn't do to keep you in my life. Mubeen I'd be lost without you, I'd lose my mind. You're my other half. The only peace that fits my heart. You're my soulmate.

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HOME

I've never felt a love like this. It feels like home. When I compare this to any other time I thought I was in love, it doesn't even come close. The previous situations I was involved in, weren’t even half as real as this. I can't find the right words to explain how this feels. It's everything I've ever asked for and even more. Mubeen you're more than I could've ever asked for. I didn't even know this type of love existed. A love where you can be yourself fully. A love where you don't doubt the other person's intentions nor feelings. A love where you're not scared to open up and be vulnerable. A love that makes you feel alive again. A love that erases all your pain and brings you peace. The kind of love you'd tell your future kids about. A love that's so real and pure, the thought of ever losing it terrifies you. The type of love you'll only experience once in a lifetime and that's only if you're lucky enough. You're truly the love of my life and I keep thinking about it each day. It hits me full force just like the first time I realised it. I can't see myself ever being with someone else or ever building a future with anyone but you. I don't want to experience any happiness, sadness, highs and lows with anyone other than you. I know nothing's perfect in this world and we're humans. So, we'll probably face difficult times in the future, whether it's individually or as a duo. But I know that we'll get through it together. We always do. I know that neither of us will ever give up on one another. That's mostly because we love and respect each other equally. I truly believe that. You know how they say there's always one person that loves the other more in every love story? I don't believe that's the case with us at all. I truly believe that our love for each other is so deep to the point it couldn't even compete nor be compared to one another. It's just as strong on both sides and I pray it stays that way throughout the years and throughout every struggle we'll face. I promise to always have faith in us and never give up on what we have. Even in the most difficult times. Even in circumstances where the average person would dip. I'd never give up on us. You're worth every struggle that comes my way if it means I get to keep you in the end.

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A REMINDER

I want to remind you of what an amazing and strong person you are. I know you struggle with seeing it sometimes, but before anything, I want you to know that you're human. I want you to remember that I don't expect you to be perfect. Realistically, neither of us could ever be. We'll always make mistakes, they're a part of us. We wouldn't learn nor grow without them. We see them as bad things whilst in reality, they're the things that will shape us in the end. The only thing that matters is whether we repeat them and what we learn and take from them. Regardless of all that, I want you to know that I'll be here to remind you of how amazing you are as often as I can. Till the day you'll start to believe me and hopefully slowly see it for yourself too. Mubeen you have such a big heart. If there's one person deserving of happiness, it's you. I promise you'll get to that point, some day. We'll work towards it together. It won't always be easy. There's days you'll take three steps foward and then there's days where you'll take four steps back. But it doesn't matter, as long as you keep trying and don't give up hope. I'll stay right by your side until the day it happens. Till the very end, I promise. I'll hold your hand through it all. You won't have to face anything on your own, ever again. We're a team, remember? I know some things you struggle with are hard to talk about and you can't always express how you feel, but you don't have to. I'll love you through your silence. I'll love you through your pain and most importantly I'll love you a little more on the days where you feel like you're at your lowest. Whatever you're going through I believe in you and I know you'll get through it. You've been through so much already and yet you're still here as if none of it had ever scarred you. You know what that means? That you're strong, so so strong. You are still here, despite it all. You are still fighting your battles through all your heartbreak, all your wounds and scars. You are still holding on. Still healing. Even though it might feel like it sometimes, you haven't given up on yourself. You're still fighting through everything and that says a lot about you. I promise you, if there's one person that can handle every obstacle that life throws at them, it's you. I'm so proud of you, always will be. There's so much good in you Mubeen, so much. I know you get stuck on the bad sometimes but, your good outweighs the bad to the point the bad becomes insignificant. I hope you'll see it too some day, I'll make sure you will.

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I LOVE YOU

Ofcourse I had to make a whole page dedicated to how much I love you, cause how could I not? I have so much of you in my heart. I don't think there's anything in this world I hold more dear than you. I don't know what exactly it is that made me love you this much in the first place and makes me love you even more as the days go by. But if there's one thing I'm sure of, it's that I will love you through anything. No matter what happens, or how bad things get between us. There will never come a day where my love for you will change. I love every part of you, every single thing about you. From the way you love to annoy me to the way you get so excited talking about football. I will love you on the days everything is going perfect and on the days where you'll feel at your worst. I will never stop loving you. I'll even love the things you hate about yourself till you learn to love them too. Sometimes I wonder how it's even possible to love a person this much, but then again, how could I not? How can I not love you when you're the only thing that can make me smile when my whole world is falling apart. When you're the only person in my life I can't picture myself without. The only one that makes my pain and anxiety disappear regardless of what I'm going through at that moment. You make everything better. You're my cure to everything. You're my other half.

I've said this a million times but I could never say it enough. You're my peace. You bring me so much peace and I don't think you even realise how much. When my head feels like a chaos all I need is for you to talk to me and it's like everything instantly gets silenced. I could be going through the most stressful situation in life and I'd still feel at peace just by having your presence in my life. I don't know how you've got so much power and control over my emotions and how it's even possible for a person to make me so deeply happy but I'm so grateful. I feel so blessed to have you. The way you make me feel and bring so much ease to everything in my life. It's like you were made just for me.

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☾ ★

Remember that day you called me your moon and I called you my starts? The starts to my sky? You truly are, in many different ways. See how the sky only lights up once the stars start shining? How it remains so dark and empty without them? That's exactly what my life would be like if you weren't in it. For the longest time everything has been so dark around me, but your presence alone has brought so much light back into my life. It's like I can see in the darkness again. I wish I knew how to explain this, but there's truly not enough words to do so. My heart is so full of you. I don't think you understand how much value and importance you hold for me. You really mean a lot to me. More than I would ever be able to express. I'm just really happy that I've met you and sometimes I can't believe that you're an actual part of my life. It feels like I've known you my entire life. I can be myself around you without any filter. You understand me like no other. Everything feels so natural when it comes to you. I don't know how I've lived all these years without you. I just hope I won't ever have to experience a life that you're not part of. You're really my light. You help me see when everyting around me turns dark. I pray you stay in my life forever.. and a little longer. I love you.

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MR. RONALDO

This title makes me laugh so much lmfaoooo. Anyways, it says Mr Ronaldo because you're my Ronaldo and I truly believe you'll become just as succesful as him one day. I wish the best for you in life and I pray you get every single thing your heart desires, no matter how long it takes or how far fetched your dreams may seem. I really believe in you, I believe you can get anywhere you want in life and do everything you want, as long as you work hard. Motivation won't always be there but consistency and determination is what'll get you there and you've got both. I know you'll get to the place you want in life. Whether it's school career wise, football etc. You're the most hard working person I know. You put effort in the things you want and that's all you need to succeed. There will be bumps around the road but I promise to always be there and help you get through them. I can't wait to see you grow, not only in life but also as a person. As an individual. I pray every single thing that scares you, every single thing that keeps you up at night and worries you, every single thing that makes you feel restless slowly dies down and doesn't have control over your mind anymore. I know and believe you'll overcome it. All of it. I'm sure of it. Remember, Allah will never put you through things you can't handle and He always tests the people He loves the most. You're one of those people. Everything you're going through right now will make sense one day. You're getting prepared for big things in the future and you'll become the best version of yourself. You're such a strong person and you've got so much potential. You've got so much to offer this world, don't let anyone, anything or any thoughts make you think otherwise. I'm so proud of you for everything you've overcame and achieved already. I'll always be pround. You deserve the entire world and everything beyond. I promise you will get it someday. Not only will I be there to cheer you on, but I'll push you everyday till you get there.

Happy birthday to my most favorite person in the world. In Shaa Allaah many more years to come. I wish I could kiss you right now but this distance really be getting on my fucking nerves. But it's okay because we'll break the distance one day and I'll be able to hold and squeeze the shit out of you. I can't wait till that day comes :(. Enjoy your day and don't let anything ruin it. I hope reading this made you smile a little. I love you hayati, forever and beyond.